It happened to me..

For starters I had a great weekend in Chennai, as usual.
The best part about the weekend - I missed my bus back to Bangalore.

And there I was sulking because the three day hectic weekend unfortunately had to end on a sunday night when I was scheduled to leave at 10: 30 pm. As luck would have it, I was totally exhausted and thoroughly "pooped out" after several walks on the beach, visits to meet family and friends, eating out and the works.

I decide to take a nap at 10:00 pm for "ten minutes", and ofcourse after a much deserved "power nap" there I am sitting up wide awake all ready to leave, but at 11:00pm!!
I shout at A, " What the F... its 11:00 pm". As calm as calm can be, he asks me to relax, its too late now.
I stare at him in disbelief. "But .....??"
I knew he would try his best to ensure that I reach somehow. We rush out. I grab my jacket, scarf, shoes and run to the car.
A drives in full speed. In fifteen mins, we reach. Just as he pulls in to the office of the supposed travels, a Volvo passes.
" I hope that one is not yours" says A
I rush to ask the first person I see from their office, " Bangalore... Volvo....?"
He is indeed thrilled to inform me " oh.. madame? sit No 16 ahhh?? Window seat ahh?? Bus ippothan poyachu"
Bloody hell.
I run back to the car. A tells me we will chase the bus, though we both knew that it had gone far head. Thats the thing with these Volvos I realize. We try to chase it, but it had gone completely out of sight.
A says " No point now, its ok, you can go tommorrow"
I immediately think of what to tell my boss. I must say he should be proud of me.
We get back home. I rush to log onto IRCTC for a train ticket. But the damned site is down - "service unavailable" . crap!
A says, with his usual sheepish grin " Let me take a photo, please"
I am disappointed, upset, angry, ashamed and also telling myself " its no big deal". Yes, I am sure that would have made a good photograph.
After many failed attempts trying to book a ticket on IRCTC and KPN, A tells me the best option would be to take the earliest flight the next day. We argue over the money involved.
After a while I painfully realize there is no other option.
And of course.. I am on this goddam plane now! Pah!
Yes, this did happen to me. ME.

Home Sweet Home Alone?!

Seven years and still counting....its been quite a while since I have been living away from home,... moving in and out of different cities. It has become next to impossible to keep track of the number of hostels and paying guest accomodations that I have lived in!! But I must say I have very fond memories of almost all the places (I am referring to the people i have lived with and not the WARDENS!! Mind you, those species must be banished from this planet!)

But I must admit that I was always spoiled. Even though I was away from home, I had the best of friends around me (Thank U guys!) ready to cheer me up if I was down, ready to join me if i wanted to cook, ready to go for loong walks even if it was on an early sunday morning.....

Not that I dont have those friends anymore, but they dont live with me now. Its been almost a year since I have been staying alone at my new place (Technically a few months as my sister was always around till about two months back!), and I somehow have mixed feelings about the whole idea.

Initially the idea was definitely exciting! Your own space, Wow! You get all the privacy in the world, You can call your friends and family over (thats the best part), You can play whatever music you want.... blah blah..

Later on as the months passed, I had too many things to think about : electricity bills,a nosy landlord, random noises in the middle of the night (ok, maybe I was hallucinating) cleaning and cooking (this one is the worst). The past few months have made me relaize that though I am an independent person and like my own space, I cannot be alone. I need someone around to talk to,to come back home to..(someone pleasant of course) !!! I keep asking myself - Is this normal? How could I be so immature? But I am sure most of you who have stayed alone would have felt the same way. It can get quite boring after a while, unless you are a person wedded to your work and thats all you can think of even while you are at home.

Its mostly the weekdays and not the weekends that matter. Weekends, I ensure I catch up with most of my friends, make a few trips to see my folks or my boyfriend (who also lives alone and loves it!?! I guess its a 'guy' thing......)

No salsa classes nor gym will help you handle the solitude, its clearly something you need to accept and get used to I realize.

On a positive note, I must say I did manage to do a lot of reading, a bit of cooking ;) and surely a whole lot of online research on most things living and non living (hehehe) in the past few months! Phew! ..... If any of that counts for healthy living...:)ummmmm..

I think it sure does! so Yayy!!

Whoever said "no regrets" was lying!

What is the most dangerous six letter word that can totally spoil your mood, make you feel disgusted and angry at yourself, nurture only (or atleast mostly) negative thoughts and leave you helpless and depressed?

R E G R E T!

yes, people! It does!

U may agree with me or not...but the truth is that most of us have gone through this phase and some of us go through this phase more often than some others.
Let me warn you, it is healthy as long as it is constructive introspection and you are not on a self sympathy trip. Then it becomes dangerous!
Ok, so u didnt make the right decision then, ok so you didnt tell him/her what you felt then, ok so you chose the long route instead of the short cuts, etc etc... blah blah... so what the heck! Who doesnt make mistakes? DUH!

just a friendly advice from someone who went on this "oh crap.. why did i do it" trip for a while....

- Try and make an honest attempt to UNDO it, if its not too late.
(Now this is definitely easier said than done. I have tried many a time, but in vain!!if u can.... Then thats the best way to feel better about it)
- Try not to tread on the same path again
- Take some time out for yourself, deal with it and tell yourself its no big deal!
- Stop blaming yourself for it always.Maybe it was your fault, but you never claimed to be gabriel!
- Do Not whine about it always (umm, well yeah maybe a lil), instead tell yourself "It couldve been worse"
- Self Sympathy is a No NO!





We all make mistakes for a reason, shit happens!! Try to learn from them and dont let Mr "REGRET" get the better of you!

Dont say i didnt warn ya....on that note i bid farewell to all for a great cup of coffee and a nice walk in the park! :D

tiggity bappitty booooo....!!!!!!!!
random? childish? gibberish? well, what the heck!

I May Not Have Told U.....

I may not have told you that
I admire your confidence to do atleast 9 out of 10 things
I look upto your ability to not crib
I am moved by your habit of reaching out to someone when they least expect
I respect the effort you have taken to understand my idiosyncracies
I am happy to be with you, A. Always will be.

I may not have told you that
I admire your patience
I look upto you for all what you have taught me
I am amazed at your abilty to multi task
I respect the effort you have taken to groom me
I can never thank you enough for all the care. Love u mom

I may not have told you that
I can never imagine a bigger pillar of strength
I admire your honesty and simplicity
I respect the effort taken to give me a comfortable life
I am amazed at your strength to survive even the worst
I will never let you down. Love u Dad

I may not have told you that
You definitely are not the last priority
You will always be in my fondest childhood memories
You will always remain my confidante
You will always be looked up to for being the independent one
You will always be loved. Thanks for being there ,P.

Office passtime??

Ok,.. Lemme not start this blog by declaring how long it has been....skipping that bit,..

Isnt it amazing that we humans can sit through meetings and meetings and not arrive at a decision. Well I am convinced we can, and even more convinced that this kind of thing can also happen every day! To put in the most simplest way, the corporate world should have laws against holding more than two meetings a day and not more than 5 a week!

Imagine one such discussion:
speaker 1: "So where did we stop last time?"
speaker 2: "we were discussing plan A, .........and I was thinking we could go about it this way"
speaker 3: silence
speaker 4: "yeah it is a good plan....
speaker 1: "Yes, i agree it sounds good, but why dont we do it this way as well....."
speaker 2: "But dont you think that is very difficult in terms of implementation...."
speaker 3: silence
speaker 4: Nods in unison
speaker 5: "Hey guys, sorry I am late......"
speaker 2: "Well we were just dicsussing how to implement plan A,....and this is how it is gonna
happen.."
speaker 3: "I agree"
speaker 4: silence
speaker 1:" Even if that sounds good,... somehow i feel the other idea of mine is quite
simple"
speaker 3: i think i am gonna scream
speaker 2: "ok" whatever!
speaker 5:"Guys, there is this Plan B that i have...."
speaker 4: "excuse me guys, I just got a call,... carry on"jesus! What a waste of time!
speaker 2: "I like X part about Plan A but I also like Y part of plan B, can we kinda merge them ?"
speaker 1:"But i thought we had finalised on Plan A.... But.... "
speaker 5: who cares about you , loser "yeah you were sayin... which part of Plan B did you not
like?"
speaker 3: " Are we not moving away from the topic?.."
SILENCE. YAWN??
speaker 2: "Not really ,.. i think plan B is kinda good. Plan A is also ok"
speaker 1:" No guys,.. I 'll tell u something,.. look at it this way,.."
speaker 5: "Ok, I'll tell u wat. Lets meet again tomo and discuss the pros and cons of both the
plans, then weshall take a call"
speaker 3: wow. this beats rocketscience!?!
speaker 2: damn, i cant leave early tomo too!
speaker 1: that prick, tomo i am gonna kick his ass!
speaker 5: i need to leave before that DVD store closes....

now this is an office reality or what!?
ok, a lil exagerrated. but wat the hell!! They are still bad. Aaaaarrggghhh!

The Busybody of Today!

Why do some people always make the promise of keeping in touch only to disappear from the phase of this earth never to be found again??
One of the biggest ironies!!
I unfortunately know some. Their favourite lines are:
"I am so sorry I have been busy, will call u back"
"Oh I was just thinking I should call you"
"I am a little busy, will definitely call you back"
The funniest one is " I was just talking to him/her about you" (Yeah, I was born yesterday to buy that crap!)
It is quite disheartening when you take the pain to constantly keep them in the loop, update them on your personal life, leave offlines and e mails and never ever get a response.
Everyone today love to use work as their biggest alibi for not having time for others. That is just so lame! Most of them dont realize that what goes around comes around. In such things, age, profession, geographical distance really DO NOT make a difference. It is such a happy feeling to catch with someone after a break, i have always enjoyed such converstaions and e mails. One of my closest friends, She stays like a few million miles away, and I am so proud of the fact that we practically know what each other is upto almost every single week. No, it is not because we do not have a social life or a career. Another ironic fact that i have observed is that you are more in touch w/ people who are the farthest in terms of distance than the ones in the same city!
Why on earth is that!?
Anyways its not like this post would make any difference to anyone of them! lol
For those who are reading this, hope you are hale and hearty wherever you are.
And for the nth time,.. Be in touch. :)

Lazy Sunday??.....

shucks!! Been more than a month since my last post. Lazy Lazy ,.. so bloody lazy!! Lethargy once it creeps in, its the worst thing that can happen to anyone.
One whole month just buzzed past with two trips to chennai, a few million weddings attended, two great weekends of hectic shopping and ... well that pretty much swallowed almost all my time. Still i have two more Economists left to read, a half read novel by Karan Bajaj, and loads of e- reading! Sigh!..and a License Test awaits.
One Sunday is so not enough. This is the nth time i have been cribbing about a non existent weekend and somehow i realize i shud stop.
Today i must visit the Nautica and E spirit store,.. apparently there is an EOSS sale.
Then i need to drag my ass to some freaking corner of this city to finish some official work! God.. why me!!?..
Atleast a movie awaits me today evening at 4 pm... So much in one day!
"What is life w/ so much care when you have no time to stand and stare!?"
Arrrgggh!..........................